Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Me Had all Me Can Stands and Me Can't Stands No More.


Who knew Popeye was so Damn poetic.

I have really begun to have about all I can stand at this point.
I have met some really nice people since i started this adoption.

And I have met some real wack jobs who just get on my last freaking nerve.

The Over Bearing /Bible Beating/"P.C. Police."/etc......

I think my personal Favorite Adoption Insult of the Year is: Live your life for Now and Deal with what's Real and in Front of You.

"Your Babies arent even Here yet there like a pair of Boots on Layaway.
Once you get them Home then you can Deal with Them."


Now don't get me wrong I have a lot of Respect for Other Peoples Faith.
In fact I admire people's Devotion and Strength to Believe in such difficult times.

But PLEASE RESPECT OUR DIFFERENCES!!!!

I Do Not wannna Save an Orphan or BE Like Angelina Jolie or even think that there's going to be a "Special Place in Heaven just for Me because I'm a Selfless Role Model."

I am a Silly,Fun Loving,Spiritual,Strong Woman.
Who has lost Children and Can't have any More.
But wants a Family of her Own Plain and Not So Simple.

I just can't stand all the Drama anymore.
It's all Doom And Gloom ......

PULEEEZE Enough.

THE WAIT SUCKS AND WE ARE ALL HURTING EQUALLY .

There I said it No More Tip Toeing around on Eggshells.
Okay I am going outside to plant flowers in my garden.

So if you have a problem that needs to be fixed call someone else I'm not saving the world today.
Besides my capes in the Laundry

XOXO Dee

Thursday, May 10, 2007

7 Months LID...................


Today Hubby decided it was time for me to dye the roots and took me to the hair salon.
I thought what a great way to forget for a moment how incredibly crazy things have been lately.

We had the most beautiful day we picked up lunch and had a picnic outside it was so hot yesterday it felt like 85.

When we got home i saw Mila's brown envelope sticking out of the mail box .
I had all but givin up on getting one and here it is go figure.

I was so happy i cried but then again lately depending on what day it is all you have to do is look at me and i cry.

Which me and Hubby find kind of odd because i am such a tough brooklyn girl i hardly ever cry.

I guess its the whole Mother's Day thing that has me an emotional mess.

I always think of Nico and remember how he would jump on my bed and yell wake up Mama you missin your mamma day Bfast me and Papi made.

Mother's Day has come to remind me of 3 Special Children.

Nico my First Son (Who I wasn't allowed to keep )
Peanut my First Daughter( I lost after a late term miscarraige)
And My Precious Mila Blue (Who is in China waiting to come home )

Rob has promised to distract me the way he always has.
Damn , I Love that Man.

So to all you Wonderful Mother's please have a very Special Day............

xoxo D